Lazy

I'm feeling so lazy and down right now. I even have this fear of getting a shower today because i don't want to see my body, I'm having my fat feeling of the day. I think this part of recovery is the hardest I think i will continue gaining weight like crazy.

I just had lunch I made a fish chile relleno(damn I lost my camera), it was good but so spicy! (Another thing: In Mexico the big meal of the day is at lunch time, dinner is usually the lightest meal like sweet bread and milk or something like that)
I'm feeling so full and disgusting :( usually Sundays are the same, I have free time and I'm thinking of ed all day. I hope tomorrow i will start from zero and I'll be distracted with other things :)

Sunday morning rain is falling!

Yes i used to listen to Maroon 5 :)
The weather it's awesome! 64° and no sun or rain!
This morning i woke up STARVING and craving something salty! That's weird for me I usually have cereal the easiest thing ever haha :) But we didn't have NOTHING in my house! I went to a kind of a circle k/7-11 for some kind of bread but the store didn't have bread! I came back and ate oatmeal cookies seriously we don't have anything!



I also had a big horchata made with skim milk. I love horchata! This was a fear drink actually all I could drink was water, diet coke and sugarfree drinks. That is progress right?



I think i will go to buy some food with mom because my fridge is empty! seeyou:)

Cold is Sad

Hello guys!
Is my first day trying to be healthier and I think that things did not start well :(
It's raining and it's cold outside so I didn't want to go out, instead I'm in my pj's watching twilight the movie and reading new moon (yes i'm a little addicted :) lol)
My mom is here but I feel a little lonely, 3 years ago when i was ed-free i used to go out everyday and had lots of friends but know i think i can count my friends with one hand, that's not bad but you know :(
I feel like I made lots of bad choices food wise and I don't think my photos are good enough for my blog
Breakfast:1/2 cup of honey nut cheerios+1/4 banana+ skim milk and coffee (why can I have my cereal in a real bowl? not in a tiny cup?) i hate ed
Snack:1/2 orange (again with the halfs :/)
Lunch: Leftover crab salad with real mayo and carrots+dietcoke
Snack:1/2 red apple
Dinner: Strawberry-banana smoothie+coffee+dietcoke(yes again+more honey nut cheerios
I feel like i did bad today :(
Now that i reached my healthy weight I feel like I will keep gaining weight if i continue eating "normal" what should I do?

First Post!

Hello there!
Actually I'm new to blogging and I don't know how to start!
After reading lots of healthy eating or ed recovery blogs i thought that the best way to improve myself was making my own :)
Everyone it's invited to follow my journey through my life and recovery i hope this time will be for real and forever.